This is the time I guess i think differently. Today I ask myself what's life again.... But amazingly my tots are different. Dunno why? The way I think, talk, generate ideas, response, do, write and also everything. Everything around me had changed, I can't find the old me anymore. Where is the old me?
This few days I start to think about money, start to think about future, start to miss my memories. This few days I really had different respond to stuff, just like the way I handle poly stuff. The way I handle my emotional. The way I eat. The way I do work. This dew days when I saw people around me, I will keep on asking how do they think of me? This few days I will start to think that things are not last long. This few days I thought about dieing, having wife, having child, having house, having money. This few days is really so empty to me. really.......
I had got my answer.
I know what I want now towards the next 3 years. Maybe I will sign on, maybe I will not. Maybe I will be a teacher, maybe I will not. Maybe I will still miss her, maybe I will not. Maybe I will be famous, maybe I will not.
So many new question stuck in my brain. So many unsolved future. I only got 1 life, what if I made the wrong choice? What if, what if? I don't know why I am talking this way. Am I the annoying ones? I guess is true. When I was in my primary and secondary school. I don't have friends, maybe I am irritating? Now I had no friends, but I had achieve lots of things. So what does this mean?
Am I the ugly ducklings?
I will be famous next time after army? or maybe in army? Or maybe any where? MAybe I think too much again. Should stop here. -DCJR
