ITS NOT FAIR!!!! why can't me asking others to take pictures with me? why??? me really so ugly meh!!! you see Benson, people follow him because he is cute the take me as an example people follow me after school is because of my rank
this year onward all graduating classes student must pass their rank to junior before i pass many juniors follows me treat me very nice but now after i pass my rank down few junior OH no i should say almost all juniors treat me DIFFERENTLY!!!
what is going on WHY this world not fair!!! i ask teacher to take pic wit me, jj and chongyao they can do the twist hand sign but when i do and one girl tell me not to do that i mean whats wrong!!! chong yao the chior girls me also people why they must treat me like I AM THE MOST UGLY PERSON IN THE WORLD!!! WHAT THE DIRFFERENT!!!
like i say all are humans!!! i am kena treat like the odd one out i have all the friends follows me everytime is like because of my rank this is what i feel i really feel very very extrmly sad!!!
when i post i am sad in my blog no one like tag me and jus give me some comment? and lets take an example, shawn tok you all should know. he like say somtthing sad in his post WOW his tag box is flod!!!
what the different? his a kid i am also a kid(at his age) you all see now he is 14 and his tag box is flood wit love then compare me to him when i was 14 NO ONE boder to read my post even i don tag theirs first.
what is good friends? i really don understand?
me born in this world is like i am a slave!!!
in class they can talk to each others everyone treat everyone the same they got their own group to talk and laughed walk to where can hi-5 to each others but for me i must talk to people or jus walk pass and give my hand to them jus to shake hand or even do the hi-5 thinngy but in the end i was given the black face or i kena laughed or scolded
wad the hell???
i walk around dough i am famous in school almost like all teachers and auntie or even student knnow me but also no used some say hi to me and i am happy but somtime me say hi they even like walk away with the eye looking up esspeically for few teachers some teachers must learn from the auntie and uncle they will sure reply
some teachers are like when you need help they wiil come find you say hi to you when dun need help they llok up the wall like i am dead
for student i am famous among them wif my bloodly singing when they saw me they will copy how i sing in a retarted way esspcial some chior members they think they can sing well meh? (although they sing well they also cannot laughed at me wif my song what)
oh this is how your teachers teach you one is it?? i dont think i an alive in my school
this is what i get for doing like SO MUCH THINGS!!!!
and L_ _ K_I S_EN_ you said you treat me as friends to me i don think so when you need help you treat me different from normally how you treat me. i am ava so what? i am not in charge of the computers lab keyboard!!!
and i am very down now no one i can really talk to....
i do so any ava stuff and no one REALLY APRECIAITE!!! i am saying to some teacher!
and _ ayner _a_ you keep saying i am handsome than you are you trying to say i am UGLY than YOU!!!
and _ee Y_ _ _ He HOW YOU TREAT ME! YOU HAPPY BEAT ME!!! WHEN YOU NEED HELP YOU TALK TO ME NICELY!!!
did i own anyone a life??? or i need to be all your slave this life?
i really douno?
you all take Jun bang and me and compare he do nothing and the girl protect him when he wanted to start a fight when people tekan him than me people tekan me one one care!!!
and lets take edmond and compare when he talk to teacher and me talking to the teacher in charge of the concert teacher talk to him like normally people than when its my turn when me and the cher talking the cher never even look in my eye and TALK!!!
and Y_ Sha_ you keep saying that you sing better than me and YONG HE sing better than me did you and he ever try going fr and singing audition??? did you?
and jj sec one knows almost all the students in school and me is they know me i douno them!
WHY! WHY! WHY! WHY! WHY IS IT SO NOT FAIR!!!
Have you ever feel that you are forced to do something that you do not like? Have you ever feel neglected by somebody even though you had done a lot of thing for him/her? Have you ever been forced to apologise to someone but actually it does not come out sincerely from your heart because you do not feel that it is your fault? Have you ever feel that you are rather transparent even you are in a big group? Have you ever feel been malign before? Have you feel that you have a lot of friends but never hear from them? Have you feel paranoid about everything? Have you feel that you are born to appease people? Have you encounter friends that think exactly like you? Have you ever treat someone as BEST friend but actually you are nothing to that person?
Well, let me tell you what. All of the above, I have encounter them. Everything came down as a bombshell in this four year in my secondary school life!
Hi Jia Rong. Truly sorry that you're feeling this way. & i'm sorry that i won't be around to say 'Hi Jia Rong' again when you step into the LIA. But still, please dun get too upset about this k. well, i do look forward to your end-product "funeral" video of me.. hehe.. True that life isn't fair, but it's not fair too to let your life to be this way. This will take some time to understand why some things happen in some way. but be patient k - which i know you can. Do take care. & i wanna have tat photo i had wif U!!! email to me k!
It's actually quite sad that this world is actually unfair. But the earlier you figure out this, the better you can survive in this world.
Don't give up now! You still got a longer and better road ahead that you deserve.
Let's just say that we would need to face our problem with a positive attitude.
JiaYou!